Last Thursday, July 2, 2015, I had neurofeedback treatment number 8. The night before I took a nap and actually hit REM for the first time in forever! Once I woke up I never really overcame that dreamy haze and that haze carried over into the next morning/afternoon.
When I woke up at 5:30 in the morning I couldn't function and ended up calling in to work telling them that I would be out for the morning. Around 9:30 I finally got my lazy butt out of bed and started on my way to work. I was not in the best mood because I was tired, irritable, and not feeling well--like a little kid who has been woken up from their nap. I thought about canceling my neurofeedback appointment but I was supposed to handle the last part of my payment that day and I was at work anyway (which is closer to the neurofeedback building than my home), so I kept it.
When I got to my appointment I told the doctor that I was tired, exhausted, dizzy, and in a bad mood. Actually, I think my exact words were "I'm in a F!!! off and die mood." Having gotten a lot of cussing out of my system, and trying to be in a better mood for the doctor, I felt a little better.
The doctor asked me if I was depressed and I told him I was but not in a I want to kill myself way but more in a I want to cry and I have no idea why way. Between that and the anger I was feeling for no reason he put the sensors lower on my head and put me back into the green glasses. He said that since I had taken a nap my body was craving sleep and because I was angry and wanted to cry that instead of depressing my system more, we would try to neutralize it. I'm now wearing the green glasses for the next couple of sessions.
While I was watching the movie, I still felt sick and angry, but by the time my neurofeedback session was over I felt better, happy even. Me and the doctor laughed and I no longer felt sick!
I did my hand peddling/oxygen exercises and put the pulse massager on my hands and feet and by the time I got into my car to drive home my world was better! That if nothing else was proof to me that this is working.
Other things that I've noticed and are probably due to the treatments: no anxiety. That's right! I haven't experienced any anxiety! I've had dizzy spells, bad moods, and an overall sense of exhaustion but not once have any of them been accompanied by anxiety. I'm not sure that I want to sit on a plane to Australia or get on stage at a concert yet, but I see improvement! Traffic doesn't bother me as much as it once did and I'm finding amusement in the little things. I'm much more the person I used to be at that was after only 8 treatments :)